Trapped

i am trapped

in a world

a world unknown to me

what is true

what is uncertain

the light

the darkness

the good

the bad

happiness

sadness

everything feels interchangeable

when you trust

they hurt you

when you do not trust

you hurt yourself

either way

the damage arrives

i wrap myself

in a vicious circle

round and round

no exit sign

no pause

routine consumes me

slowly

quietly

loneliness

my most consistent companion

i spend my days

wanting to be like everyone else

forgetting

how to be myself

i love

and i give everything

in the end

i am the only one left empty

suffering

depression

words people call normal

hurt

does it even matter anymore

love

what the fuck is that

live

for what

family

home

i do not even know

what home means

pain and regret

run in my veins

i drown in memories

punishments

care

weary tears

i was born

i loved

i hated

what else is left

a world

an unknown world

the same one

i once tried to survive

memories come and go

i do not know where i am

or why i am here

the only thing i know

the only thing that stays

is the image

of you

leaving